somedays (like today) everything is perfect but I just feel completely BLEH

It’s confusing - WHY am I not happy? I realize now that, at least today it’s because I’m missing some good old fashioned rage. These little irritations build up and I try to solve them with peaceful, controlling methods.

What I really need in that moment is just a burst of anger to release the emotion and open me up for action.

Once I express anger I feel balanced and good. I know that I’ve got my own back and I’m doing exactly what I want to do with my life.